Thoughts

Just in case anyone reads my previous blogs and decides I am being negative or pulling myself down, I must say it's not like that at all.

I have largely lived my life just as it comes, but my response was to avoid hard issues. Consequently my life, my relationships, my family all became a mess.

I once preached a message entitled "The Buck Stops Here". I thought I was preaching what I practiced. I have come to see that what I saw in the mirror was not the same as what others could see if they looked within.

I have made choices to stop being a victim, to stop living with my head in the sand, and to be a strong and accountable leader for my family.

To this end I have been assessing my life. I have read various books to prompt me. I am working through a process of change for the better.

One big turning point in my own life, & consequently in my marriage with Liz, has been doing "The Love Dare". The first time around, I took about 6 months to complete a 40 day adventure. Typical of me. I have not been good at finishing what I started.

The second time has been a lot more consistent, and as I work through the daily readings and challenges, it is changing me. God is changing me. I am changing me. I am amazed at how much I personally needed to change. And I see the benefit to all the family of me doing it again. Liz needs a better husband. Our children need a better dad/stepdad.

So ...

In about a week I will be back to Day One. This time I will be blogging my thoughts and discoveries. For various reasons:
The discipline of being watched.
The greater transparency it will require of me.
The awareness that I may be able to help others as I go. The blessing of rebuilding trust for Liz and the family after all I did to destroy it, had been a great encouragement to me as well. I want that to keep growing.

So please join me on my journey. Put up with my stumbling. Take courage from my getting up again each time. . Let my commitment perhaps help you in your own journey as you read my thoughts and daily observations.

It will be unashamedly Christian. For without God I can't succeed. I need Him.


I will start in a few days, maybe a week. I look forward to sharing with you.